New Year - The Past

I forgot again to write a blog yesterday, I don't even remember what I was doing that was so interesting, looking at hotels and skiing destination for an article I was writing. Fun fun, which it was, helped me see prices for skiing. Not that I would ever go skiing, it's far too cold for my liking, I just can't deal with the cold, I don't have enough blood to keep me warm.

New Year is coming soon, what have you got planned? I'm going into London to see the fireworks. I'm excited. I liked the fireworks 2 years ago, I used to go to Alexandra Palace every year for Guy Fawkes, so I am used being in a large crowd. New Years at the fireworks 2 years ago was brilliant, had a good laugh with some friends and it was a pretty cheap night, what with the free tube, free entry to a club (a friend worked there) and free drinks (I love my friend) and much drunkness. But that's not what New Years is about for me.

Sure I like getting drunk and what have you, but it's more than that. Some people say it's just another day, but for me it really isn't. For me, it's a time to forget everything in the past, to start again. To just leave everything the last year has bought behind and do it all again, the way I want to. This is the time of year I usually don't give a shit and do what makes me happy, but alas as the year progresses, this all fades. Not this time. This has been such a shit year for me, not saying there have not been really good times like my 1 year anniversary with my annoying boyfriend (love you really!), holiday to Spain, new job, new friends, only getting the flu once (YES ONCE!) and saving up monies.

But mostly it's been a really tough year emotionally, one that I would rather forget about and just move on and start again with a positive view and outlook of what's to come in the New Year. I heard a really good quote on Dawson's Creek my Andie the other day when I was up at 6am getting ready for work and it made me realise that it is only me that can change things, I mean, I knew that anyway, but you know when you just feel like you don't have a clue what you are doing? That was me, until I heard this...

Andie: This isn't funny, Pacey. It's just that you're entire future is on the line here and I think you should be a little more nervous. I mean, you're so not nervous, you're making me nervous.

Pacey: Now that all my postulating of illegitimacy has been duely-documented, I kind of feel like a weights been taken off, you know?

Andie: If that's the way that you perceive yourself, then that's the way people are going to look at you. If you act like a joke, people are going to treat you like one.

Pacey: You finally figured it out. I'm not Luke Skywalker, I'm not even Luke Perry. There's no hero here, Andie. I am a joke.

Andie: I'm not coming to your pity party. You know I don't think you're a joke, Pacey.

Pacey: But it's too late. I've spent too long being a screw-up, I'm kind of passed the perverbial point of no return.

Andie: Well, change your course. Break the chain. Anyone can re-invent themselves. I mean, it's America. Madonna does it every week.

Pacey: But I don't know how. I don't know where to start.

Andie: Try starting from the inside. I mean, anyone can change their fate. Heroes are made, not born.

There have been some other happenings that give me hope that I can change things too, I can't remember them now, but I believe that it is me now who has to change the way I am. Even though the people/world around me is a bit fat pile of pap, it doesn't mean that it has to get me down any more. The one thing I felt that I couldn't change I now feel I can do it, with or without people's help. It's not as difficult as I first thought and I am ready.

This is why new year is important to me, I can do it properly, the way I want. People can advise, but their problem is they throw their toys out of the pram if I don't do things their way. Why should I? As far as I can see, I have a mind of my own and can more than adequately use it (when necessary!) and should be able to make my own decisions without anyone throwing a barmey. If you want to get mad and upset, go do it at someone who is actually going to give a crap, because I won't any more. It's been going on too long. So eat that.

This blog makes up for yesterday.

AND BRING ON THE NEW YEAR!!!

Christmas is upon us

Once again it's Monday, (woo yay... not), we've got this week, then next week, then CHRISTMAS WEEK! Christmas is approaching fast, has everyone done their shopping? I certainly haven't, mostly because I do not know what to get my friends + I have no monies. Seriously, NO MONIES! I can't even pay for the things I usually pay for, how bloody bad is that? All because of last Saturday (the one before the one just gone, 29th Nov) and my credit card deciding that it would choose the day I actually needed it, to stop working. So low and behold I was screwed anyway. Sucks to be me really.

I feel so bad that I can't get my friends something nice, even small (I can't even afford a fiver!!!) because I just can not afford it. This has been the most expensive time of the year (when isn't it the most expensive?) and the credit crunch and all this palava going on, it hasn't helped much. They say in shops things are on sale, 75% discount (that's good, things should be about a fiver then!) but oh no... they are exactly the same price, they just say these things to lure shoppers in who think they are getting a good deal. KNOW YOUR SHOPS! If you shop somewhere regularly then you should know the prices of garments, so please please you crazy shoppers, LOOK at what you are buying! I can't remember which shop I went to as it was a few weeks ago, possibly Topshop, but I went in after it said money off things and they were actually MORE EXPENSIVE than they are at usual price... but hey 75% off I'm going to buy it! Friggin steal! No thanks.

It really is tough times these days, and yet I am still trying to look on the bright side, what with New year coming up (and having NO MONEY) it's going to be very tight. But hopefully the New year will bring more positives around the corner. It's been a very tough year, and I am happy to say I can't wait to see the back of it and start again, making choices, not letting things get me down, stopping people getting to me. It's going to be the year of change. Everything is going to change for the better, I will make sure of it and hopefully it will be a lot more jolly, even in the tough times.

So even though everyone is flat broke, Christmas and New Years may be cheap, the weather is shit and cold, jobs losses are sky-rocketing (I feel for these people so much), the economy is falling faster than a meteorite, but look on the bright side, New Years means to start again and make that difference. You're going to have to do it eventually... so I think now is a good time to make the changes you have always wanted to. I think if we didn't keep positive then there would be a whole lot of suicide reports on the news...

And there hasn't been...

This was very philosophical for a Monday morning at 7am...

Pop

Ever since I can remember I have been a fan of pop music. Why!!! I hear you cry, well, just because I have alright? I've loved all those pop stars since I was little so I'm told, singing along to Madonna, Michael Jackson, Elvis, The Monkiees (oh yes, you know you love it), S Club 7, Take That, Britney Spears (dur) and anything else pop pop pop!

I recently re-found my pop. God, I forgot how much I loved it. All day I've been listening to stuff that just puts a smile on my face. That's all it is, it just makes me smile, it's feel good, make you smile and dance like a loon to the music. Ah good old pop.

People slate it... why is this? I am thinking because some can be very annoying, samey and they will just go around and around your head, kind of like the Numa Numa song (which I think is hilarious, especially that guy on you tube dancing to it with his headphones on), I was just looking for the song and I came across these Numa Numa Lyrics in English... haha! That's just so funny, I know it's not the real words written in English, but it's nice to think that it is.

Ma-ia-hii, Ma-ia-huu, Ma-ia-hoo, Ma-ia-haha ...

So as much we all hate pop, it is here to stay and I for one am happy because it's just something to feel good and have some fun with.

Rock on Pop!

Advent Calenders

I've never really been one to get an Advent Calender. Just seemed like a bit of a waste, but over the last 2 years I have had one and I must say it's pretty cool! I think it's a great way to control your chocolate in take especially. If you are like me and like the occasional chocolate, but feel crap if you eat whole one, an advent calender is perfect. The chocolate is small behind the window, but enough to satisfy your taste buds. Again if you are like me, you can't just eat one stick of KitKat, you need to eat all 4 to stop the craving, so the advent calender is a god send.

Also it's great you can get different kinds of advent calenders, lots of different pictures and stuff to choose from. Last year I got a Doctor Who one with David Tennant on the front (yes you should know I love him) and this year I got a High School Musical one! WHAT TIME IS IT?!

I am sure by the time you have read all my entries you will realise just how sad I am. But I don't mind. I like it. I like that I am a Britney obsessed/Dr Who/ Dawson's Creek/Neighbours/Home and Away crazy bum.

Yes I do.

*walks off singing High School Musical... then Dr Who... then Britney*

P.S. Yes. I got my Britney Tickets for her Circus Tour.

Circus - Britney Spears

It's all I can think about today. I am listening to her album on line right now and I love it. I really want to see her live again. She was so brilliant on the Onyx Hotel Tour, it didn't bother me at all that she mimed because the show she put on was so amazing I was blown away.

She is touring for circus, tickets at the O2. I am so happy I am a priority customer, I am going to be there 9am tomorrow!

If her performances promoting Womanizer and now her new single Circus (which is brilliant by the way, go listen to it) her show is going to blow everyone away.

I am so glad she is sorting herself out. Yeah OK, she went totally mental, but all in all, I felt sorry for her if anything. The poor girl going through a hard time, possibly bought on by herself only because of being all self destructive, but I don't think the press didn't help. Yeah, I see it's a story, but it just seems people couldn't leave the poor girl alone to deal with her problems. I guess that's a disadvantage of being so ridiculously famous that everyone wants to know what you eat to how you go to the toilet.

I am proud to be a Britney Spears fan and I don't care what anyone says about her. Bitch about her all you want, everyone makes mistakes and I think she is stronger than she ever was for actually accepting something was wrong and trying to sort out her problems, not maybe people can say that they woke up and saw the light of their errors and were trying to fix them.

I may be totally wrong and have got my story all wrong, but it doesn't matter. I'll admit I didn't really pay much attention when the media were bitching and moaning about her and showing her self destructing behaviour (I read stuff about 3 months after it all happened because I felt sorry for her)

So this is just to say that well done Britney, and I hope you put on a rocking performance when you tour. I look forward to it!

Oops - Feeling Fruity

I forgot to post my blog yesterday!

I did write one, I just forgot to stick it up, so lucky people get 2 today!

I am not one to crave fruit very often, but today I didn't fancy eating anything but fruit. How weird is that? For someone who isn't the biggest fruit eater, I was feeling rather fruity. I ate some pineapple and mango. I don't really know why I am talking about fruits, I just thought randomly I would start something to talk about.

I also support the Post Office today. Had to send some packages away and I wasn't sure, but the guy behind the counter was so lovely and helpful. Thank you Mr Post Office Man!

Stop! Woah yeah wait a minute Mr Postman...

I don't really have much going through my head today (no surprise some of you will think) I am just kind of... there. I will say one thing though. I have eaten so much food today it is annoying and ridiculous. I don't have my huge bottle of water on my desk so I probably haven't drunk enough water, hence feeling tired at 3pm in the afternoon. Although waking up at 4am doesn't help with the tiredness.

Why is it we get up at all hours of the morning, 1am, 2am, 3am etc... and we are wide awake, ready to get up, start the day and get to work, but when our alarms actually go off, getting out of bed is like doing housework? You know you have to do it but it's just so much effort and you'd rather stay in bed/ on the sofa. Just 10 more minutes! I hear you cry, but that 10 minutes will inevitably make you late and then you'll be stuck in traffic because leaving just 10 minutes later means 100,000 more cars on the A406. Sucks to be in traffic.

Oh Wow, look at you now, Flowers in the Window

Apparently there is an old saying that men only buy flowers for their women if they have done something. I am wondering where this came from? It mostly sparks in a marriage because apparently when you are married the romance kind of dies, and a man brings you flowers to say sorry for forgetting something or if he has done a something wrong. Why can't they just bring you flowers... well... Because?!

I've spoken to a few married people and even they say that if your man comes home with flowers randomly then you should have your suspicions because he's probably done something. I'm sorry but I have to say I don't believe this one bit. Guys CAN buy you flowers “just because”. Why not? Why think there is something behind it? Us women are far too suspicious of things going on. I think it's lovely when you find someone you can totally trust and have no “well why did he do that?” behind it.

Sometimes ladies, we just need to accept the fact that men do these things “just because” it's us.

I'm not saying men don't buy flowers when they want to say they are sorry, but I think there are many other reasons too.

1. To say sorry.

2. To make you smile when you are sad.

3. To show you that they care.

4. To let you know they are thinking of you (Surprise flowers! Yay!)

5. Because they secretly like flowers (ha ha!)

So I really like it when I get flowers, like I did this weekend, hence my flowery blog today. After having such a bad Saturday in preparation for a James Bond party, with everything going wrong that could possibly go wrong, My dress didn't fit, I had to go hunting for a new one with hoards of stupid shoppers, my credit card deciding not to work, my water deciding that it would stay cold when I needed to have a shower, arriving at the hotel only to find that I couldn't check in without partners consent as it was in his name but under my card, My credit card being declined again, then my debit card being declined, then HIS debit card being declined, then him ringing me telling me he's going to be here later than he was as he forgot his shoes at home, moving our cars to my office wasn't so bad, but by that time I was so upset with everything that had gone wrong I just burst into tears (even though I laughed it all off during the period of what went on)... and then receiving flowers and chocolates, which stopped all the crying and sniffs and made the night amazing.

Hooraaaay for flowers! (and partners, but don't tell them that)