New Year - The Past

I forgot again to write a blog yesterday, I don't even remember what I was doing that was so interesting, looking at hotels and skiing destination for an article I was writing. Fun fun, which it was, helped me see prices for skiing. Not that I would ever go skiing, it's far too cold for my liking, I just can't deal with the cold, I don't have enough blood to keep me warm.

New Year is coming soon, what have you got planned? I'm going into London to see the fireworks. I'm excited. I liked the fireworks 2 years ago, I used to go to Alexandra Palace every year for Guy Fawkes, so I am used being in a large crowd. New Years at the fireworks 2 years ago was brilliant, had a good laugh with some friends and it was a pretty cheap night, what with the free tube, free entry to a club (a friend worked there) and free drinks (I love my friend) and much drunkness. But that's not what New Years is about for me.

Sure I like getting drunk and what have you, but it's more than that. Some people say it's just another day, but for me it really isn't. For me, it's a time to forget everything in the past, to start again. To just leave everything the last year has bought behind and do it all again, the way I want to. This is the time of year I usually don't give a shit and do what makes me happy, but alas as the year progresses, this all fades. Not this time. This has been such a shit year for me, not saying there have not been really good times like my 1 year anniversary with my annoying boyfriend (love you really!), holiday to Spain, new job, new friends, only getting the flu once (YES ONCE!) and saving up monies.

But mostly it's been a really tough year emotionally, one that I would rather forget about and just move on and start again with a positive view and outlook of what's to come in the New Year. I heard a really good quote on Dawson's Creek my Andie the other day when I was up at 6am getting ready for work and it made me realise that it is only me that can change things, I mean, I knew that anyway, but you know when you just feel like you don't have a clue what you are doing? That was me, until I heard this...

Andie: This isn't funny, Pacey. It's just that you're entire future is on the line here and I think you should be a little more nervous. I mean, you're so not nervous, you're making me nervous.

Pacey: Now that all my postulating of illegitimacy has been duely-documented, I kind of feel like a weights been taken off, you know?

Andie: If that's the way that you perceive yourself, then that's the way people are going to look at you. If you act like a joke, people are going to treat you like one.

Pacey: You finally figured it out. I'm not Luke Skywalker, I'm not even Luke Perry. There's no hero here, Andie. I am a joke.

Andie: I'm not coming to your pity party. You know I don't think you're a joke, Pacey.

Pacey: But it's too late. I've spent too long being a screw-up, I'm kind of passed the perverbial point of no return.

Andie: Well, change your course. Break the chain. Anyone can re-invent themselves. I mean, it's America. Madonna does it every week.

Pacey: But I don't know how. I don't know where to start.

Andie: Try starting from the inside. I mean, anyone can change their fate. Heroes are made, not born.

There have been some other happenings that give me hope that I can change things too, I can't remember them now, but I believe that it is me now who has to change the way I am. Even though the people/world around me is a bit fat pile of pap, it doesn't mean that it has to get me down any more. The one thing I felt that I couldn't change I now feel I can do it, with or without people's help. It's not as difficult as I first thought and I am ready.

This is why new year is important to me, I can do it properly, the way I want. People can advise, but their problem is they throw their toys out of the pram if I don't do things their way. Why should I? As far as I can see, I have a mind of my own and can more than adequately use it (when necessary!) and should be able to make my own decisions without anyone throwing a barmey. If you want to get mad and upset, go do it at someone who is actually going to give a crap, because I won't any more. It's been going on too long. So eat that.

This blog makes up for yesterday.

AND BRING ON THE NEW YEAR!!!

Christmas is upon us

Once again it's Monday, (woo yay... not), we've got this week, then next week, then CHRISTMAS WEEK! Christmas is approaching fast, has everyone done their shopping? I certainly haven't, mostly because I do not know what to get my friends + I have no monies. Seriously, NO MONIES! I can't even pay for the things I usually pay for, how bloody bad is that? All because of last Saturday (the one before the one just gone, 29th Nov) and my credit card deciding that it would choose the day I actually needed it, to stop working. So low and behold I was screwed anyway. Sucks to be me really.

I feel so bad that I can't get my friends something nice, even small (I can't even afford a fiver!!!) because I just can not afford it. This has been the most expensive time of the year (when isn't it the most expensive?) and the credit crunch and all this palava going on, it hasn't helped much. They say in shops things are on sale, 75% discount (that's good, things should be about a fiver then!) but oh no... they are exactly the same price, they just say these things to lure shoppers in who think they are getting a good deal. KNOW YOUR SHOPS! If you shop somewhere regularly then you should know the prices of garments, so please please you crazy shoppers, LOOK at what you are buying! I can't remember which shop I went to as it was a few weeks ago, possibly Topshop, but I went in after it said money off things and they were actually MORE EXPENSIVE than they are at usual price... but hey 75% off I'm going to buy it! Friggin steal! No thanks.

It really is tough times these days, and yet I am still trying to look on the bright side, what with New year coming up (and having NO MONEY) it's going to be very tight. But hopefully the New year will bring more positives around the corner. It's been a very tough year, and I am happy to say I can't wait to see the back of it and start again, making choices, not letting things get me down, stopping people getting to me. It's going to be the year of change. Everything is going to change for the better, I will make sure of it and hopefully it will be a lot more jolly, even in the tough times.

So even though everyone is flat broke, Christmas and New Years may be cheap, the weather is shit and cold, jobs losses are sky-rocketing (I feel for these people so much), the economy is falling faster than a meteorite, but look on the bright side, New Years means to start again and make that difference. You're going to have to do it eventually... so I think now is a good time to make the changes you have always wanted to. I think if we didn't keep positive then there would be a whole lot of suicide reports on the news...

And there hasn't been...

This was very philosophical for a Monday morning at 7am...

Pop

Ever since I can remember I have been a fan of pop music. Why!!! I hear you cry, well, just because I have alright? I've loved all those pop stars since I was little so I'm told, singing along to Madonna, Michael Jackson, Elvis, The Monkiees (oh yes, you know you love it), S Club 7, Take That, Britney Spears (dur) and anything else pop pop pop!

I recently re-found my pop. God, I forgot how much I loved it. All day I've been listening to stuff that just puts a smile on my face. That's all it is, it just makes me smile, it's feel good, make you smile and dance like a loon to the music. Ah good old pop.

People slate it... why is this? I am thinking because some can be very annoying, samey and they will just go around and around your head, kind of like the Numa Numa song (which I think is hilarious, especially that guy on you tube dancing to it with his headphones on), I was just looking for the song and I came across these Numa Numa Lyrics in English... haha! That's just so funny, I know it's not the real words written in English, but it's nice to think that it is.

Ma-ia-hii, Ma-ia-huu, Ma-ia-hoo, Ma-ia-haha ...

So as much we all hate pop, it is here to stay and I for one am happy because it's just something to feel good and have some fun with.

Rock on Pop!

Advent Calenders

I've never really been one to get an Advent Calender. Just seemed like a bit of a waste, but over the last 2 years I have had one and I must say it's pretty cool! I think it's a great way to control your chocolate in take especially. If you are like me and like the occasional chocolate, but feel crap if you eat whole one, an advent calender is perfect. The chocolate is small behind the window, but enough to satisfy your taste buds. Again if you are like me, you can't just eat one stick of KitKat, you need to eat all 4 to stop the craving, so the advent calender is a god send.

Also it's great you can get different kinds of advent calenders, lots of different pictures and stuff to choose from. Last year I got a Doctor Who one with David Tennant on the front (yes you should know I love him) and this year I got a High School Musical one! WHAT TIME IS IT?!

I am sure by the time you have read all my entries you will realise just how sad I am. But I don't mind. I like it. I like that I am a Britney obsessed/Dr Who/ Dawson's Creek/Neighbours/Home and Away crazy bum.

Yes I do.

*walks off singing High School Musical... then Dr Who... then Britney*

P.S. Yes. I got my Britney Tickets for her Circus Tour.

Circus - Britney Spears

It's all I can think about today. I am listening to her album on line right now and I love it. I really want to see her live again. She was so brilliant on the Onyx Hotel Tour, it didn't bother me at all that she mimed because the show she put on was so amazing I was blown away.

She is touring for circus, tickets at the O2. I am so happy I am a priority customer, I am going to be there 9am tomorrow!

If her performances promoting Womanizer and now her new single Circus (which is brilliant by the way, go listen to it) her show is going to blow everyone away.

I am so glad she is sorting herself out. Yeah OK, she went totally mental, but all in all, I felt sorry for her if anything. The poor girl going through a hard time, possibly bought on by herself only because of being all self destructive, but I don't think the press didn't help. Yeah, I see it's a story, but it just seems people couldn't leave the poor girl alone to deal with her problems. I guess that's a disadvantage of being so ridiculously famous that everyone wants to know what you eat to how you go to the toilet.

I am proud to be a Britney Spears fan and I don't care what anyone says about her. Bitch about her all you want, everyone makes mistakes and I think she is stronger than she ever was for actually accepting something was wrong and trying to sort out her problems, not maybe people can say that they woke up and saw the light of their errors and were trying to fix them.

I may be totally wrong and have got my story all wrong, but it doesn't matter. I'll admit I didn't really pay much attention when the media were bitching and moaning about her and showing her self destructing behaviour (I read stuff about 3 months after it all happened because I felt sorry for her)

So this is just to say that well done Britney, and I hope you put on a rocking performance when you tour. I look forward to it!

Oops - Feeling Fruity

I forgot to post my blog yesterday!

I did write one, I just forgot to stick it up, so lucky people get 2 today!

I am not one to crave fruit very often, but today I didn't fancy eating anything but fruit. How weird is that? For someone who isn't the biggest fruit eater, I was feeling rather fruity. I ate some pineapple and mango. I don't really know why I am talking about fruits, I just thought randomly I would start something to talk about.

I also support the Post Office today. Had to send some packages away and I wasn't sure, but the guy behind the counter was so lovely and helpful. Thank you Mr Post Office Man!

Stop! Woah yeah wait a minute Mr Postman...

I don't really have much going through my head today (no surprise some of you will think) I am just kind of... there. I will say one thing though. I have eaten so much food today it is annoying and ridiculous. I don't have my huge bottle of water on my desk so I probably haven't drunk enough water, hence feeling tired at 3pm in the afternoon. Although waking up at 4am doesn't help with the tiredness.

Why is it we get up at all hours of the morning, 1am, 2am, 3am etc... and we are wide awake, ready to get up, start the day and get to work, but when our alarms actually go off, getting out of bed is like doing housework? You know you have to do it but it's just so much effort and you'd rather stay in bed/ on the sofa. Just 10 more minutes! I hear you cry, but that 10 minutes will inevitably make you late and then you'll be stuck in traffic because leaving just 10 minutes later means 100,000 more cars on the A406. Sucks to be in traffic.

Oh Wow, look at you now, Flowers in the Window

Apparently there is an old saying that men only buy flowers for their women if they have done something. I am wondering where this came from? It mostly sparks in a marriage because apparently when you are married the romance kind of dies, and a man brings you flowers to say sorry for forgetting something or if he has done a something wrong. Why can't they just bring you flowers... well... Because?!

I've spoken to a few married people and even they say that if your man comes home with flowers randomly then you should have your suspicions because he's probably done something. I'm sorry but I have to say I don't believe this one bit. Guys CAN buy you flowers “just because”. Why not? Why think there is something behind it? Us women are far too suspicious of things going on. I think it's lovely when you find someone you can totally trust and have no “well why did he do that?” behind it.

Sometimes ladies, we just need to accept the fact that men do these things “just because” it's us.

I'm not saying men don't buy flowers when they want to say they are sorry, but I think there are many other reasons too.

1. To say sorry.

2. To make you smile when you are sad.

3. To show you that they care.

4. To let you know they are thinking of you (Surprise flowers! Yay!)

5. Because they secretly like flowers (ha ha!)

So I really like it when I get flowers, like I did this weekend, hence my flowery blog today. After having such a bad Saturday in preparation for a James Bond party, with everything going wrong that could possibly go wrong, My dress didn't fit, I had to go hunting for a new one with hoards of stupid shoppers, my credit card deciding not to work, my water deciding that it would stay cold when I needed to have a shower, arriving at the hotel only to find that I couldn't check in without partners consent as it was in his name but under my card, My credit card being declined again, then my debit card being declined, then HIS debit card being declined, then him ringing me telling me he's going to be here later than he was as he forgot his shoes at home, moving our cars to my office wasn't so bad, but by that time I was so upset with everything that had gone wrong I just burst into tears (even though I laughed it all off during the period of what went on)... and then receiving flowers and chocolates, which stopped all the crying and sniffs and made the night amazing.

Hooraaaay for flowers! (and partners, but don't tell them that)

Ice Cream in Winter

I am currently eating ice cream. Plain. Vanilla. It tastes good. Why is this? I mean, it's winter, ice cream should be a no go! I mean it is making me shiver slightly but I love it. It makes me happy. Here are the reasons I think everyone should eat ice cream in winter.

1. It tastes nice

2. It won't melt

3. It makes you happy

4. It's out of the normal things people do in Winter

5. I believe it cures the flu, despite what Wiki Answers says

6. This has no relation but I thought the answer was funny

7. Sugar is good energy, even for a short period of time (and it helps after lunch when you feel tired after a nice big meal)

8. It's a nice shape when they give it to you. Like a really nice swirl

9. Kids look so funny when they have ice cream all over there face! You know they enjoyed it

10. Because you just bloody should!

I thank you.

A Life For Sale

Has anyone ever felt this way? Things just NEVER seem to be going right no matter how hard you try? I've been feeling like this today, and to be honest, I fairly sick of it. Things happen around me that ARE BY NO MEANS MY FAULT and then I get blamed.

This is increasingly making me upset, even though it's not my fault people are stupid around me, so I have finally, after millions of years of deliberating and umm-ing and ahh-ing, I have come to a conclusion.

Life hates me. That is correct. No matter what I do it is never right, no matter how hard I try I always fail. So why don't I just give up and sell my shit life and buy a new one? Seriously, you can, a guy from Australia did it when his fiancé left him, he sold his entire life on Ebay http://www.alife4sale.com/index.htm is his official website. I think I want to follow suit to be honest. Could I ever? I really don't know if I am honest. But how awesome would it be if we could all just sell up when we are fed up and do what he is doing? Aspiring, it really is.

I'm just sick of everything. I'm not a selfish person, that is the major part of my problem. I 've grown to think about everyone else first before I think about myself, to the point where I don't actually look after or care about myself any more. But I think it's about time I took a stand. The majority of people around me are selfish and only think for themselves, isn't it about time I started to as well? It's easier said than done though. Yet another problem.

So, what's a girl to do hey?

I wish my life was for sale.

Things in the Post

I thought I would be quite random today and rather than bitching about society/life/government/life and thought I would talk about something nice. THE POST!

How amazing do you feel when you get mail? I don't even care if it my credit card bill, the fact I got something in the post makes it SO much more exciting. I don't get mail very often, so when I do it's like a mini party in my head.

OK, so the Royal Mail isn't the best service in the world and I am sure many things have been lost in the post for some of us, but you can't honestly say that when something you didn't expect comes through the post you get all excited and “Oooo!!! I wonder what it is!!” It's that 30 seconds of excitement that get me the most, it makes my day.

So as much as mail services can be really poo, I love getting mail in the post and I think that everyone else should be grateful when they get mail, even if it is a bill, because some people don't even get that. ALL HAIL MAIL!

I hate Winter.

Now I am sure some of you may love winter, the cold, snow, frost, big coats and wonderful hats and scarves. WHY I ask you? What is so good about you freezing your arse off every time you leave the house? I hate it the most because, well, I've always hated the cold. We have a mutual hatred for each other. It hates me, especially when my car is so old that every 2 days I have to put oil and water in it otherwise there is no heat and I have to then stop at a petrol pump in the FREEZING COLD and pick up ice metal to fill up the radiator, thinking this is how I am going to die. And I hate it because I always get sick, at least 3 – 4 times a year with the flu, with every year getting worse, the car issue again and the fact that it flares up my eczema no end. My hands look like a 70 year old woman's and I'm not 70! Not even close, over 50 years off in fact.

This makes me wonder why my parents ever moved here. They came from India you see, which is fair enough, better life etc, but why here? Why not America, or Australia, somewhere HOT! I suppose America is worse than here... but oh well. Choices choices.

I will soon be needing a new car as mine is getting on. It needs a pension really. I think the government should pay haha.

But no, I do very much hate winter, I hate the snow, the frost and the coats!! I'd much rather be warm than cold, at least then I wouldn't get so bloody ill.

Monday morning blues again... Dreams!

Morning everyone. Having been in bed most of the week with the flu, the weekend wasn't that much different. I still haven't got over the flu, I didn't even have a voice over the weekend and only got a little bit of it back yesterday. Last night I could not sleep at all, but that did not stop the weird dreams coming around. So that's what this blog for you all is about today. Dreams. But in saying that, before I go into details, when it came to getting up for work this morning, alas, I couldn't get up. I just don't understand why. I don't sleep all night, but when it's time to get up, body says “NO!”

Anyway, back to my two weird dreams. There are two so bear with the weirdness. OK, so my first dream, I'm at the theatre with a friend, I don't know who she is in real life, but in my dream she was a friend. We were going to see... wait for it, Barney on Ice! I know, it sounds totally random, but it gets a lot more odd. So we are seeing Barney on ice, and then guess who turns up? None other than one of my other friends whom we shall call “Worzey” (he knows who he is) don't ask me why he was in my dream, but he was, he was sitting on our table, yes, we had a table, upstairs to be exact, the ice rink bit was downstairs, but we were on a table upstairs, this is where our seats were. There is one more space on the table, and the show is sold out, so we are just waiting for the last person to turn up. Who is it? I hear you cry, well, none other than the gorgeous David Tennant (Why is he leaving Doctor Who?! WHY!!). I don't care what anyone says, he is gorgeous.

So he comes and sits at our table and my friend (whom I don't really have a clue in real life) goes nuts and is all over him. We all start talking and she is stalker like trying to sit next to him (I'm next to him) and get all up close. We have a laugh and then I go to the loo, by the time I get back she's right up next to him, feeling his arms and laughing at everything he says (oh dear) then we see Barney heading downstairs with his ice dancers. On our floor, there was something on the floor that made ice skaters able to skate (I know, don't ask) which just looked like crushed ice. So then this show started and it was very bizarre to say the least. I don't know how they were skating or anything. But then all of a sudden they were pulling the curtains down and a big screen came out of no where and a movie came on.

In this movie which I find quite disturbing, a guy was arguing with his wife and then he hit her and went on to teach her a lesson for messing with him and arguing with him and went on to do er... not very nice things to his daughter... this then turned into a mass thing which was broadcast on the news (in the film!) and he got arrested or something or other, I wasn't there long enough to see the end as I got very upset and stormed out in an array of tears. I get an email from “Worzey” and Mr Dashing David asking if I am OK and I don't answer and run off to sit outside on this bench. A random guy comes up to me and asks how much for a bunch of flowers (which are next to me as there is a flower merchant stand next to the bench) and I look at the prices and one bunch is £3.50 and another bunch is £4.50. So he takes both and pays for them. I take a brown paper bag and put them in there and by that time I am found by “Worzey” and Mr David. We all talk and sort things out then go into the arcade and play on the slot machines. I don't win on those 10p machines where it moves back and forth and you stick 10p in to win monies, but some guy shows me how to win monies and gives me the lot that comes out. Brilliant. Then I walk over to “Worzey” and Mr David and they are both eating big fat juicy burgers and it's all over there faces, very amusing. I walk off back to the slots.

Then I wake up.

Bizarre dream no? Thoughts?

I'll post the other tomorrow.

A Battle of the Sexes

Now this is a constant battle that is never ending between men and women. Which ones are more superior to the other? Well I think it’s about time we weighed the differences between the two.

Now in the olden days when women didn’t have any rights to vote or work or get educated or whatever, all we did was clean, cook, push out babies and generally be something look at. Men were the ones who went out to work to earn le monies so we could live and look after our kids. Women weren’t allowed to do this.

Now when everything changed and women had rights to work, vote, earn some monies, they still earned less than men, but the fact was, they were learning and working. Now I think men found this hard to adjust to because of the whole sexism thing and how men felt they should bring home the bacon and women should still be at home.

However, what they don’t realise is that as well as going out to work, learn, study or whatever, they were STILL doing everything they did before. The cooking, cleaning, popping babies and being sexy. That’s something to be proud of don’t you think?

Now I’m not saying men are completely useless, they work very hard in what they do and are generally great guys, but seriously, where would they be without women? Interesting fact, you know that men’s clothing buttons are on the other side to women’s clothing? Did you know that this was the case because it was easier for women to dress their men and do their buttons up as it faced the correct way for them to dress their husbands? What does that tell you huh? Men didn’t even dress themselves.

Sorry men, but I truly believe you would be nothing without women. You would be sitting at the pubs like a chav, going to the job centre every two weeks to claim your money and generally be overweight good for nothings. Extreme I know, but life is extreme.

Give me counter arguments men. Come on. I think we should all discuss this.

I’m sure it’s a lot more complicated that just some things I’ve said, it goes back a long way in history and I think the issues should be discussed. Oh the psychological repercussions of what I have just said.

Let the battle commence.

Disturbed – Flu + Hornyness

I feel like I understand myself less and less these days. I’ve been at home with the flu all week, bed ridden, snotty nose, cold sweats, coughing fits, dehydrated and not hungry yet none of that bothers me. The flu I can deal with, I get it about 3 – 4 times a year (although this year thank God this is the first time I have it) which I am used to now, it’s the weird side effects that creep me out. As you have guessed from the title… feeling horny. Anyone else get this? Please tell me I am not the only freak out there!

And there isn’t a damn thing I can do about it. I think I will wallow in my own flu pity. Never mind hey? I guess we all have our freaky things. I will also sit here and listen to Muse – Feeling Good. God this song is so sexy it should be illegal. So should the lead singer.

Now yesterday I was talking about how much I liked the Rihanna song Disturbia, and now I am starting to believe I really am disturbed in some way. I’ve not slept properly in God knows how long, and having the flu doesn’t help me getting better if I can’t sleep! I was up all night just feeling crap, sore neck and wide awake. Things like this don’t help the flu. I wish there was something that would help you sleep. Well, I know there is, but nothing works. I think I need new pillows.


When someone doesn’t sleep enough it does things to the brain. It makes you think horrible thoughts and makes you confused about things in your life. I’m used to being confused in my life, but this just tips me over the edge. My minds in Disturbia as Rihanna says.

I still really like her shoes.

Womanizer

So seeing as I am sitting at home with the flu, I thought I would download some music that I have been meaning to. Womanizer by Britney, now being a huge Britney fan, I like this by default so be quiet to all you hater!! LEAVE BRITNEY ALONE! I mean it… What a loser that guy is, he’s become famous by being an absolute mental case, and do you know he’s releasing a single? I wouldn’t be surprised if Britney took out a restraining order for this guy.

I also Like Rihanna (I know, sue me, kill me now) I like Disturbia… I LOVE HER SHOES! Seriously, her shoes are bloody hot in this video, call me weird but I notice things like that.

Shoes, a girl’s essential, as well as Mascara and Concealer and pants. I’m not sure which is most important. I’m going to go with Shoes because people see them and they make us feel sexy, then pants because if we are wearing something sexy then we feel sexy and know we are wearing something underneath that only one person will be able to see. Am I right ladies? What are your essentials? I put Mascara and Concealer last because I usually forget to put them on. But oh well.

I’m keeping this thing short today because I really don’t feel too good to be able to think about a lot. Besides, Britney is making me feel better. WOMANIZER!

Oh I also found this really funny French song by Plastic Bertrand – Ça Plane pour Moi, listen… it’s brilliant.

Flu-y

It’s not fun having to stay in bed because you have the flu. It’s no fun at all. Especially for me as the sheer boredem drives me mental. I need to do something because I am a do-er. However, I know that if I go out I will just make myself worse, serves me right going to the gym yesterday doesn’t it… but that actually made me feel better. I can’t win really.

Medicine, aromatherapy to kill the germs, it did work, kind of. I woke up this morning for work blocked up, tired, couldn’t move, that’s not the way to be. STUPID COLD! TO HELL WITH THE SHIT WEATHER!

We haven’t had a decent summer in 2 years. The government blame global warming and as a result everything has shot up in price. Petrol because cars are bad for the environment. They have invented the hydro-electric powered car, but the release of it won’t be until every single penny is sucked out of us. I feel like I am living in Sherwood Forest with the tax man taking all our monies to keep us more while the King sits laughing at us all. WHERE THE HELL IS ROBIN HOOD WHEN YOU NEED HIM?

Now I was thinking of the cartoon Robin Hood, but then I remembered the BBC series and the Hotty that plays him. COME ON HOTTY! SAVE US!!

What is wrong with the government today anyway? Seriously, it’s not all about money. I’m pretty sure people wouldn’t mind paying taxes as long as it went to something useful other than their wages. And what is this about Gordon Brown wanting to change the law to make everyone automatic organ donors? What is happening to this countries freedom of choice? It’s not his right to be able to decide things like that, it’s ours, and if he puts this law into action then what the hell? Why should we stay in a country where freedom isn’t allowed? I might as well live in prison. Why not get rid of them? They are no use, taking up space and our money!!! I’m not for killing anyone, but if someone has to go, why don’t they?

Bloody shambles this country is. I hope I get to migrate in the next 2 years, don’t want to stay in such a bloody hole like this. We pay tax so we can get free health care but the NHS is a fucking mess. Where is our money going?! What’s the point in paying for something that is free when it doesn’t even work? Why am I paying for prescriptions? I thought it was free? I think they have lost the meaning of the word free. Look it up in a dictionary.

Free:

• Enjoying personal rights or liberty, as a person who is not in slavery: a land of free people.



• Existing under, characterized by, or possessing civil and political liberties that are, as a rule, constitutionally guaranteed by representative government: the free nations of the world.



• Enjoying political autonomy, as a people or country not under foreign rule; independent.



• Exempt from external authority, interference, restriction, etc., as a person or one's will, thought, choice, action, etc.; independent; unrestricted.



• Able to do something at will; at liberty: free to choose.



• Acting without self-restraint or reserve: to be too free with one's tongue.



• Ready or generous in giving; liberal; lavish: to be free with one's advice.



• Not subject to special regulations, restrictions, duties, etc.: The ship was given free passage.



• Of, pertaining to, or characterized by free enterprise: a free economy.
  that may be used by or is open to all: a free market.



• Uncombined chemically: free oxygen.



• Not subject to rules, set forms, etc.: The young students had an hour of free play between classes.



• Without cost, payment, or charge.

Eat that Government.

Sweetcorn, Tea and the Flu.

I'm sitting here drinking a cup of tea and thinking, don't we all just hate Mondays? I mean seriously, Mondays... Monday is the day of the moon (Latin). Now when you think of the moon, you think of night time, and what do people do at night time unless of course you are a) crazy, b) an insomniac? That's right, give yourself a star... SLEEP!

Monday should officially be the day of sleep. I have decided to crown it the day of sleep. Monday glooms are no more for now Monday is the day of the sleep.

So the usual working hours apply 8 – 4pm and waking up this morning feeling like the insides of my nose had exploded is not a good feeling. I have been through the day with my nose deciding that it was going to leak at random so I might as well sit here with a tissue stuffed up my nose. How attractive am I on a scale of 1 – 10? 10 being fitty and 1 being I feel nauseous... I'm going to go with 3.

Some interesting other things I was reading about Monday that the day after Easter is known as Black Monday. It says on dictionary.com that the reason for it's reputation as Black Monday is a mystery but these people are so 1756 isn't it obvious? BLACK MONDAY! The day after Easter Sunday... what do people do on Easter Sunday? Eat shit loads of chocolate until they can't physically eat any more, or until you run out of chocolate. So Black Monday is named as such because you spend the whole day feeling sick and vowing never to eat chocolate ever again. Black Monday!

Now the dictionary also says it's the second day of the week... how is this possible? I thought in the biblical sense Sunday was the last day of the week known as the day of rest? You know, God made the world in 6 days and on the 7th he lay to rest. Or something. So how can it possibly be the second day of the week? I think someone has got their wires crossed in le bible... or I may have just proven that God doesn't exist... HOLD THE FORT!!! HOW DARE I SAY SOMETHING SO BLASPHEMOUS!! Meh... I'll get over it.

I hate Mondays.

More so when I feel like little gnomes are chiselling away at the insides of my nose.

My Book, I'm not Leaving Synopsis.

Chilli doesn’t want to grow up. She doesn’t want to change her life. She loves her friends, she loves her boyfriend Gary too, but that is not going to stop her from wanting her to go to university to make something of her self. So while making a very big decision on what course she wants to do, her parents go mental when she decides to do Psychology instead of Computing Science. Oh the horror on their faces! She hates arguing with them and the nagging is unbearable, I mean, seriously, why do they do those kinds of things? Stupid bloody guilt trips. So she compromises her life and does what they want just to keep them quiet.

That doesn’t last for very long though, Asian parents always have an opinion on everything. She wanted to move away from home but they won’t let her take out a student loan. “Can’t start your life in debt. You’ll be paying that back forever!” Everyone has debt! But not the princess that she is, or is that the princess they want her to be?

Everything goes pear shaped when her parents discover she has a white boyfriend. They force her to choose between them and Gary. “You can’t deny true love, follow your heart Chilli.” Gary is a good Christian boy also going to university in London and as he applied to halls too late, it makes more sense for them to move in together. It makes life so much easier for Chilli as she has no loan, university is about to start with a course she never wanted to do in the first place, no source of income and no friends as they have all moved away from home. Honestly, things could not get any worse.

University is a drag. Chilli is surrounded by geeks. Hardcore computing geeks that network their laptops so they can play games with each other in the student union. My god this is like suicide for her. She should never have done what her parents wanted. They aren’t even talking to her now! The only semi – normal guy is Robbie, he is so wonderful to her and so funny. They become really close really quickly. It is like they have known each other for years.

Trying to find a job isn’t easy either. Having to go down to the job centre every two weeks to sign on is a pain in the arse, especially with all the chavs who don’t really want to get a job and just go to get money for the pub.

Chavtastic.

Living with the boyfriend isn’t as honey moony as it sounded to her at first. Gary isn’t as affectionate as he used to be; they fight all the time, even though Chilli cooks, cleans, studies and looks for a someway to pay her way, while he goes out with his new university mates on his loan and gets drunk more and more every night. The poor girl, fed up of feeling like she is a housewife, decides to go out with some friends she has made at university and gets really drunk. She lives closer than her friends’ halls so they all decide to crash at her place. She shows them around the place and where everything is, but as they walk into the bathroom she finds Gary in a very compromising position with another bloke. BLOODY SLAGATHOR FRESHERS! She has no where to go as her family have disowned her for choosing a white boy over them, so she crashes with her friends moving around their halls for a while.

She is stuck in a rut and needs some help so she confides in Robbie. They go out, have a laugh, get drunk and he persuades her to change her degree to something she wants to do because she is really unhappy, go to her parents and explain what happened with Gary “The Christian” and make amends with them and he helps her find a job at the university bar part time while she studies. From the moment they met there was definitely something more than just a friendship going on, the more time they spend together, the more they seem to be falling for each other. But neither one of them seem to be realising it.

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